once again, i was forced to do the 3 most hated things
ah. God, i need more anointing,
i feel lousy.. i cannot live for anymore regrets.
no way. no more regrets.
more like, i CANNOT afford anymore regrets
as i lead the girls, God, anoint me.
i dun seem to be of any help for your kingdom at all
as i see the rest going all out for chung cheng,
i look back at myself and my grp.
God, how? what should i do? we are not putting in enough effort
God, i tried, i really tried.
God i dun want anymore regrets.
i want to do so much more for your kingdom.
at least, i have to.
how can i afford to see others moving on so much with you?
yet chung cheng remains stagnant.
i just sit on the fence?! no way!
i'm losing my friends, my cliques are pulling away.
ppl watch me, stare at me.
what am i? in their eyes, i am just another christian
a christian in fact that will give up everything for the kingdom of God
to them, i am crazy.
to them, i am mad.
to them, i am silly.
to them, i am stupid.
to them, i am not worth being friends with.
to them, i am weak.
but to God, i am strong.
i am not stupid, crazy, mad, silly.
beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
only the one to which had made me, moulded me, planned out my life
i am beautiful.
God, when i put your kingdom first,
i know you will support me all the way.
they might want to draw away from me,
ignore me, call me names, talk behind my back,
but i know, that you will help me through.
when God is with me, no one is against me!
i finally understand this.
but there is one more thing that i don't understand.
why do the "christians", don't act like christians?
they gossip behind others back
they talk bad about teachers
they laugh at others
they don't love
they don't share
God, i don't want to become like them.
outward christians w/o a close relationship with you.
God, help me change.
help me to love more.
help me to share my favourite things.
help me to not listen to gossips or even be part of them.
help me to not laugh at others.
help me to not talk bad about teachers.
God, all these i want to turn away from.
God, i dont want to me like them.
at least, how can i afford to?
